About Me

I come from Arizona but currently live in NW Indiana with my kids mother and our 3 yr old daughter and 6 month old daughter, both of whom are my world. I also have a 5 year old daughter from my ex-wife who lives with her. All of my daughters will always come first. You have to respect that I have kids and be ok with them, I also plan to be near my 2 daughters here in Indiana and if they ever move I plan on following them so that I am always around them. My daughters mother and I have talked about moving back to Las Vegas, NV where we originally moved here from 3 years ago because we both hate it here in Indiana. I would eventually like to move back but I won't leave my kids. You have to be willing to take this journey with me because my kids are extremely important to me. If you can't or are unwilling to do so, then I am not the guy for you.

I am a stay at home dad at the moment because of being out of work and now on disability for my hearing impairment. If you can't handle and respect me not having a job and being on disability and just being a stay at home dad, then I am not the guy for you. I am not asking for a handout from anyone and I don't take advantage of anyone who is willing to accept this fact. Being that I am just a stay at home dad, I am currently working towards finally getting in a band which is my ultimate dream. So you have to be willing to be with a musician and support my dream as much as I will try and support your dreams,

Yes I am hearing impaired in both ears but only wear an aid in my left ear and have almost no hearing in my right ear. This can be hard for anyone to deal with because I ask to repeat things a lot and have a hard time with paying attention, listening, and remembering things. If you can't handle that I have a hearing impairment I am not the guy for you because this is one thing I cannot change. I don't have a car at the moment because of the lack of money but I do have a license to drive and I do drive my daughter's mother's car.

I truly believe that relationships and friendships should not be built on whether a person has a job or has money or a car or his own place or basically is financially secure. While yes, I understand it is nice to find a guy who has all that and is financially secure or at least well enough off so you can feel taken care of and not have to support anyone other than your kids if you have them. I also understand in certain situations you need to meet someone in the position of being financially secure or at least well enough off so that maybe they will love you enough to not mind supporting you and help you achieve your dreams and help you get to the point where you have your own job or career, money and your own car, ect. But I'll be honest I made some decisions in my life that were nobodies fault but my own in which did not fully allow me to get to a point of being financially secure or at least well enough off to not have to depend on anyone for anything. I eventually got to a point in which I tried hard fix my life and work towards being financially secure and I was doing ok when some things that were out of my control kept me from continuing to work towards that goal and I just havent been able to recover from it. When I went on disability to have some income and be able to provide something for my family even if just a little, I made the decision to be a stay at home dad. It was the best for the situation and I continue to do this. This does not mean I am a bad person or anything. I hate to sound harsh and mean but If you feel that my situation is wrong or that you can't handle or deal with it and/or care more about the fact that I should be financially secure and have what you probably consider a 'real' job, money, car of my own, place of my own instead of living with my 2 daughters mother, being on disability and being a stay at home dad and not being financially secure or well enough off, then obviously we won't work out.

I'm a pescetarian/ovo-lacto vegetarian as well and don't plan on changing anytime soon or ever. I enjoy it. If you don't know what that is then wiki it. I don't mind if your not a vegetarian but you have to be ok with me being one. Being a vegetarian also poses an issue with me being able to go out to eat. I have to be careful where I eat at because a lot of places I can't eat at, especially out here in Indiana where a lot of the restaurants are not the restaurant they claim to be. They just use the name only and do not serve everything the restaurant is supposed to serve. Recently I have discovered that altho I absolutely hate cooking and usually for my self will just cook something quick like ramen, mac n cheese, grilled cheese, tuna sandwhiches, or anything microwave or very quick on the stove or just not eat, I do enjoy it if I am cooking for the right person that makes me feel like I want to cook for them and makes me happy cooking for them. Altho, I really don't cook all that well, so sometimes you might prefer I didn't cook. Just being honest here. However, I do like to bbq, but I'm not as good at it as I should be so often someone else does the bbq unless they like burnt meat or overcooked meat...lol But I am slowly getting better at it.

I am also a metrosexual, which tends to get me mistaken for being gay or bisexual of which I am neither. But recently I have been trying to shed that pretty boy/metrosexual image to just be myself instead of trying to please others and look good for others, mostly women. I'm a metalhead by heart. I love hard rock /metal music and love the style and the scene. I love having my semi long mountain man beard, mustache and mohawk (of which you can see on the home page picture). I love wearing sleeveless shirts, band t-shirts, longsleeve t-shirts, bandana's, my light weight slouchy beanie, and my skinny jeans or shorts. It's all about not caring what others think of what you look like and being happy and comfortable with yourself. Even when people stare and think your weird, ect. If any of you think I'm weird for dressing this way and having my beard/mustache of which I've been told looks like pubic hair, then you can find someone else cause I love being being this way and being who I am. UPDATE: I recently trimmed my beard down and it's no longer long but I do still have the mountain man style beard just not long. Its all been trimmed down but I have been growing it out again. Just takes a long time to grow out.

You might want to be forewarned about a few things about me:

I am a Leo and I fit it almost to a T. So do some research on the Leo sign and you will get an idea of who I am. I am a bit shy socially in public which makes me hide my dominant Leo side and put on a persona when I am out in public around strangers. But, once I really get to know you and get comfortable with you (mostly in a relationship situation) I let my dominate Leo in me out and drop the persona and my true self with all my little quirks comes out. YIKES! LOL That means I am an extremely hard person to live with. I am very hard headed and stubborn and like having things done my way. I can have my attitudes and my fits (No I don't roll around on the ground kicking and screaming like a kid lol). I can be very moody. However I am working on getting better and not being like that so much.
I am extremely picky when it comes to food. I can get into moods where I don't know what I want to eat and nothing sounds good but at the same time I am starving. But if I end up getting in the mood for something and if I don't have it at home and/or can't get it (because its too expensive, too far away, too late at night, place isn't open, or you don't want to eat at that particular place) or I simply don't want to go get it, I will usually end up not eating. It's just a weird mood I get into on occasion but not often. My answer to just about everything is 'I don't know'. For example, If you ask me what I want to eat or where I want to go to eat, I will usually say I don't know.
Sometimes I speak before I think and say things that are taken out of context and I am perceived as being rude and being an asshole. But usually that is not the way I meant it. usually It's just the way my brain processed my thoughts and I spoke before checking my thoughts. Also I am very argumentative about everything. I don't like people who think they are right about everything and insist that they are. I tend to have the same mentality of being right but I only think I am 85% right about everything. People have told me I act like I am a know-it-all but at the same time I hate people who act like that. I hate it when people tell me I am always wrong and don't know anything and always act stupid or like a retard.
I have an extremely hard time with personal change. Meaning in a relationship I tend to not wanna change for the other person but I have been known to expect the other person to change for me (which I know is wrong). I am working to change this and become a better person in my relationships.
I tend to be very opinionated about everything. Even sometimes when it doesn't concern me. I also have a hard time just listening when people wanna talk to me about their problems. I tend to play therapist and analyze what you say and then give my opinion or suggestions back instead of just listening to your problems.

I absolutely hate snoring and cannot sleep when you snore. I will kick you or or try something to get you to stop while trying not to be rude about it (But somehow I'm told I am still rude because I woke you up). I've been told I grind my teeth horribly.

You have to either be an extremely strong person to be able to handle me and live with me (most people are not that strong and even if they are most don't want to be that strong with me) or you have to be just like me or even be a leo like me. I know, maybe I should just relax about certain things and not be so weird I guess. But this is who I am, who I like being for the most part. I just hope to find someone that doesn't mind me being weird like this and will help me fix the parts about me that aren't so good while accepting the parts that maybe are a little weird and even annoying.

If you want to know more just ask! I value honesty and communication in relationships and friendships which is why I have laid it all out on the line for you all to be able to truly get to know me here, quirks and all. If you can't handle anything I have posted then please move on. I am true to myself but I have been working on toning down my attitudes and doing a lot of maturing and trying to become a better person. I have to do it alone because I just have never found anyone who was strong enough to help me work on my faults. I love who I am for the most part (some things I would like to change about myself) and I am not ashamed of who I am or where I come from. I have my battle scars and I don't regret anything I have done in life. I tend to take the hard road in life. It is the only way I know how to truly learn about life. The mistakes I have made have allowed me to grow as a person and become maybe not so much a better person but a more wiser person and I learn from those mistakes. If you would like to know more or have questions about anything I have posted feel free to ask me. Communication is the only way we can truly get to know each other.